chaosofnight

The saddest part about my whole life now, is that ive found stuff that makes me happy, yea go figure the hardest thing in the entire world for me to do and i found something that makes me happy, of course yes there are my occassional sprouts of depression but who the hell cares, i snap out of those now, cause ive chosen to do something about my life, nobody can controll my life, i wont be a puppet for despair, i shall cling to what i hold dear in life "my friends" they have been there for me every time ive ever needed them and i shall always be there for them, i dont believe in doing things in vain so i can honestly say id be there always for

Sucks for me as shannon has moved no and found a new bf, it pisses me off all the time how she was like no guys ever want me, yea bullshit...i honestly wish that girls would just drop dead if the found out that i was single, and we be like "oh my god chris is single" *faint* u know something stupid and simple as that, sad thing is even when we were dating nobody ever and i say that lightly, ever said i was cut or hot, never was it said to me... but now i had to fucking practicallly tell her to date this kid whom i fucking despise with a pasion, i cant stand him one bit and its really stressing out mine and hers attempted frendship. i know im

Clearly and simply as the title debuts, my week has been fucking horrid, sometimes i dont know why i wake in the morning.  well atleast something good came from last week, my bro got married, so we all flew out to colorado to see it, lots of new inlaws hurray, and then theres the fact ive been single for another week which again sucks ass cause everything is so messed up, theres only so much that i can do as a boyfriend on my own and apparently holding up the entire relationship is just beyond my ability, i need a partner fuck everything else if i can find a girl whose willing to except the goods and bads of a relationship then id be all set,